After 2 years.. still with them..
i have the same feeling.. the feeling of
"kekok"-ness..haha, in English its called as awkwardness
maybe it comes from the feeling of afraid of losing someone
always be threatened by myself that I will always be rejected
this kinda of mindset causing me too afraid of trying
and just follow their track
i dun hve the rite to set up mine
even i know everything is ok.. (overthinking syndrom!!
somehow i'm thinking, i'm not good to stay in human to human relationship
coz, i think i have some kinda dark & pessismist heart to others that i try to overcome it everyday
i'm afraid i can't love them sincerely...
i used to be a lonewolf..
and after having nakama and when without their presence, sometimes
making me weak.. i'm no longer someone who can be strong on her own.. and now i'm craving for them & their attention
this demm, stupid mindset!!!
and this morning i read the status by my nakama, Alhamdulillahto love is to give
.. i'm almost forget about dat..
ppl will eventually be left alone.. and ppl around us will keep changing.. nothing is permanent aside of My Creator
we have to learn to accept & to move on.. appreciate every simple things around us
i want to have peace & positive mind to me and to others..
and dun give up with myself and with others..